when i am with you

when I am with you, I am pathetic

When I am with you, I am worthless

when I am with you, I am suicidal

You wish to be my fucking idol

you are in denial, running through the same cycle

since I had my first dance recital

you put everyone on trial, says it’s them that makes you spiral

but upon your arrival i am fighting for survival

contemplating a fucking rifle

calling me an "entitled spiteful shy-full

shuffle trouble who doesnt know the means to struggle what its like to juggle"

*chugs a lil*

not feasible

youre liable, now unrecognizable

drinking till youre so called stable

bottle label reads unstable but enables your paunful portrayal of hateful, awful, hurtful

what about when people are with you?

when i am with you, i am expendable

when i am with you, im in an existential crisis

i am serious, my dad had the same weakness

the census, is alcoholism condemns

its commonsense, at everyones expense

your debts, your stress, your mess is put on everyone else, yes? no responsibility unless its success

she had less of a dad than i flex

cash her checks due tmro rents excessive threats too

says "pour me a glass of wine or two?

so you can whine more about revenue?

when i whine i am ignored are you too self-absorbed to know im beside you on the floor with you on my own accord rest assured im sure

when i am with you, you are not with me.

im over it

2/20/24