mothers lie

she filled my life with lies

and now i feel it all inside

asks me why im sad, i say “dad”

the issues a little girl has

as i try to make it pass

i hurt

so then i flirt, flirt it off

always catches me and scoffs

makes me feel so wrong

tears down my walls that were once so strong

i know she doesn't see what she has done

but she's the one that made him pull the loaded gun

filled two live with lies

felt it all inside

he “wasn’t thinking” is what they all say

but i sit and wonder

diminishing mother

the hope was lost but thats all i had

i was so glad

he promised but was dishonest

selfish as i sit here demolished, he left me

with her the one he died for

she filled my life with lies

cries, historical emotional wreck

twelve year old mess

stress together

things are gonna get better

“patience is a virtue” or whatever

7/8/18