bekks.corner 4/17/26

I remember being so obsessed.

I thought this is it.

I did it through all the ups and downs in my life.

I thought I found my life partner.

I use to see our future.

I use to cry over underway's.

Find every excuse to wear my ring.

I tried so hard to be everything I was again.

Confused and lost in how I would fix.......us.

Little did I know there was hardly an us.

There was me and there was you.

And I loved you.

I was so proud of me for thinking I did something right.

But I was wrong.

I disrespected myself and tore myself down.

I remember saying you fucking hated me

I remember saying I was crazy.

I remember trying to convince myself that I was in the wrong.

I remember sobbing and waking up most mornings hoping my eyes weren't puffy.

I remember saying put me out my misery because I dont know what else to do.

I made you Playlist.

I made you paintings.

I tried to love you in a way you never had before.

And I dont think you ever loved me.

When it was so wrong to do wedding plan but that was what was keeping me alive.

I remember crying in my car on my way home from work listening to the 10 minute version sad autumn girl version.

I sobbed, I fell apart, I couldn't keep up.

Tell me why it's one of my favorites now.

I think the reason why I choose you unconditionally was because I have pride.

I could do it all by myself.

With you I did it all by myself, just incase you decided to act right one day.

They said it's suppose to be fun, turning 21.