bekks.corner 6/11/26
- 4 days ago
- 1 min read
Nobody knows how confusing something can be until it happens to them.
Knowing that someone is so pure that you say to yourself "I better not mess this up."
The feeling of, maybe I deserve this.
Maybe im getting ahead of myself.
Maybe im quite literally out of my fucking mind now.
And i just dont know how to do this.
For the first time in a long time, I dont.
Remembering to be myself.
But also beating myself down.
Its not hard for me to be myself but scared to be myself.
Caution, I always seem to handle things with caution.
But also trying to learn self control
The most hardest kind of control to have.
My mind runs rampant, so fucking rampant.
Absolutely insane.
Am I insane?
I've gotta be more then half way insane, right?
Should we open that door and take a look at everything?
Let's look through my brain with a MRI.
A CAT.
A DIT.
A PET.
A EEG and a MEG.
STAT.
Im literally about to code.
Let's look at the chemicals that go off in my brain.
Let's see what it looks like with active dissociation.
When im on the freeway.
What's it look like when im at home?
At work?
When i have maverick in my arms.
What am I doing?
Like seriously.
Time of death: 04:12pm
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