bekks.corner 6/11/26

I love deep.

I love hard.

How it clouds my mind.

I guess thats the good part about being able to gather yourself in 5 seconds.

Minds clouded, catching the smile form.

Stopping it before anyone sees it.

Only you see it, no one else.

No one else.....

Speaking in code to others and telling mom about my new friend.

Its forbidden but not between us.

The way you talk to me.

The way you look at me when you talk.

The way you move.

The way you treat me like that.

The words you use.

The way you fold the cloth napkins.

The way you remember little details of me.

Almost feel like i deserve it.

I know i'm younger but I dont feel that much younger then you when im around you.

Like you said we're adults.

And im not like everyone else and I dont say that to say it.

I always hung out with the adults as a kid.

Yes, this is new territory to me but it also isn't.

All im asking myself and you is please dont be the manuscript.

I pictured it that sunday and all I knew was that it would hurt so badly to see you with another.

I feel like you help me figure out me and not in the mental way.

Control, self control over myself.

How i could spend 24/7 with you.

How hard it is to leave.

How excited i am to be around you outside of work.

How i dont know what to do with myself around you when we hang out.

How i haven't had time to write because you fill my time.

I want to get to know you and the way your brain works.

We'll see what happens.