what is real?

what is real

whats the appeal

backhanded deal

backhanded feel-ing like this

which sign did i miss

fell right into the abyss

why did i dismiss

how could i convince

its okay to be like this

but every other incidence

you dont believe to be a coincidence

youre right im not innocent

nor did i mean for this

stuck in a conflict

feeling unaccomplished

my own worst enemy

indifferent on my identity

is messing with me mentally

unconfidently, threatening heavily

uncomfortably

inside unconventionally divided unhealthily

my mind is trying to align but can’t find

am i blind?

or behind?

or did i miss a step?

i must remind… myself

its okay to ask for help

i guess…

im over it

04/16/24