i should have died

now im living with the pain

of the gun that you aimed

right at my brain and you blame

me for that

when in fact

you grabbed the gun

told me not to run

so i bit my tongue

and acted like the villain

but why did

i live and

he had to die

my dad big the one ten years ago

they said he fired all the ammo

is it shallow or foreshadow

my mom is

a narcissist

the date that he died

she became his bride

couldn’t coincide

so he turned to suicide

i should have died

wrong ones alive

ever since his fucking funeral

my moms claimed im dillusional

her wine and pills excusable?

when in fact

didnt look back

he grabbed a gun

but she had to run

he bit the big one

she became the victim

repeating date

same day and a thursday

but im living with the replay

of that never ending doomsday

i shoukd have died

now im living with the pain

of the gun that you aimed

right at my brain and you blame

me for that

when in fact

you grabbed the gun

told me not to run

so i bit my tongue

and acted like the villain

were all to blame

its just humane

im over it

08/17/2024