hostage

youre stuck in a cage

like a hamster on a wheel

know you won’t change

running on how you feel

you’ve made that clear

you say, its not ideal

and you hold on to fear

as if its not a big deal

your thoughts run in circles

while mine just stay clear

you keep building walls

and im still standing here

you talk about obstacles

as if you cant get by

but it’s just you in the way

and all that you deny

if i open your cage,

you won’t come out

you’ll bite and rage,

and just sit in doubt

trapped in comfort

and only in pain

im growing tired

of feeling like a game

i hear it in your voice,

the fight you resist,

calls you avoid

and yet i persist

i say i love you,

i know we both hurt

you cant say it back

and i feel undesired

trying to text you

and then im blocked

you cant continue

your love suddenly stopped

you rather be alone

confined in your cage

you call it complicated,

and then disengage

but all i see from here

is you barred in fear

i want you out

i miss your voice

but its not me in doubt

this is all your choice

youre stuck in a cage,

running nowhere fast,

holding on to a fear

from “certainties” of a past

thinking that its always like this

these relationships never last

i think you’ll keep running

on the wheel that youve made

so to stop both from suffering

ill leave your love that felt prepaid

im over it

10/25/2024